Mei

As I thought that this would be just another sucky working day for me, it turned out to be an interesting one indeed. Being a "banana", I can't speak or write Chinese, what more knowing about the significant meaning behind my Chinese name, Suet Mei.

According to my lady boss, Mei, besides meaning "Mei Hwa", the blossom flower that blooms during winter, it also meant that when times are tough, I get tougher. It's because the blossom flower who blooms during winter, will actually blossom more as the weather gets colder. And so she asked me, is it true, as in does it apply to my life?

I said, I guess so. Going through so much in my life eversince I was young, and when all along I just complained and complained asking God why is he so unfair to me, I guess I begin to realize that all that I've been through actually does make me into a stronger, tougher person now. So yeah haha, the name does suit me indeed.

And all along I've always told the boyfriend that I don't think our kids would actually have Chinese names as we are both Chinese illiterate, but now I really want them to have a really meaningful one.

And then later on after work as I was taking the Lrt, I met this elderly woman, who was actually Italian. She was looking at the signs, probably confused to which platform should she be in. After I directed her to the right way, she started to chit chat with me. She told me that she was 57 years older than me which would make her urm.. 78! And she's travelling on her own! Hoping around from hotels to friend's houses. Darn respect her-La.

Begin to talk about how safe is it to be in Malaysia, how lucky we were that we didn't have a quota of how much electricity or petrol that we can use like how they have it there. But then again her accent was quite heavy and she didn't speak that fluent english, I'm not sure if they have the quota thing for electricity and petrol because they are given it free or it's just because the government wants them to save? =__=''

Also, I couldn't help it but to think to myself if only my mum was still around. Oh how I would love to have her around still when she's 78! I would be.. urm.. bout' 45 then! And proly have kids that are bout' 20 by then.. And if only my mum would have the chance to travel to more places as she's only been to like urm Singapore, Thailand, Hong Kong..? Oh well.. =)

Anywayzzzzz I took a couple more of pictures of my new hair style last night before heading out to De' Canters again as every other week. I washed it! Yeah still flat-La but blow dried it a bit so it's looking a littleee bit better than the last pics-La.

Better?

First time. Ours.

Do you remember the first time we looked at each other at the library's lift?
We were at two different sides. Me on the outside, and you, inside.
As silly it may be now, it sure made my heart pound.
I never knew then that we could look at each other with bitterness.

Do you remember the first time we talked?
Sms was probably the only way we dared to.
How prep and proper we were.
I never knew then that we could be so vulgar.

Do you remember our first "I Love You"?
I don't, but I sure do remember yours.
A joke it was to you, but it meant the world to me.
I never knew then that it could be so insincere.

Do you remember the time we first held hands?
Never regretted for making the first move.
For it was the start of everything.
I never knew then that the hunger for your touch would be left unattended.

Do you remember our first time under the sheets?
Awkward it may have been.
It later grew into an addiction.
I never knew then that we could go without it.

The thought of this makes me cry.
Our first times.

My Greatest Fear

The one word to describe how i feel lately is BOREDOM.. I tend to feel that my life is now begin to feel dull and lifeless.. I know, I know that I am barely 20 and have a life ahead of me but now.. it's just utterly dull..

I used to live a life that was exciting.. with tons of friends and wild nights almost every day.. Now, all my friends are leaving one by one, mostly to pursue higher education abroad and even the one's that are still here tend to drift apart.. Is it because I no longer have the yearning to socialize and interact with people anymore? I remember my friends used to label me as the "bimbotic yet over friendly not forgetting loud girl".. I seem to have lost that touch of being the girl that i used to be.. Gosh I have only heard of like the mid 30's crisis, never knew there was the "end of the teen life crisis"..

Thinking back, I used to be well how should I put it... erm, sensitive? when it came to issues about how I was loud and "over-friendly" and always wanted to grow up and change. But now, I wish I was still as loud than before. I used to love wild nights, getting drunk, and puffing away like a chimney.. But now, I find myself enjoying chill out nights at bar or just a small "drinking session" with close friends talking bout future plans and you know..grown up stuffs like politics!

The point is, my greatest fear is that when all my friends are not around anymore, I'll not make any new friends and be some anti-social freak eating my lunch in the toilet cubicle..eeewww!

For now, I'm just treasuring every single moment that I'm having with my friends and here are some backdated pictures on Wai hong's belated b'day party at his place last friday..


Sarah's homemade pizza's which were superb (the not-burnt wan la) =p

Sushis provided by the very generous b'day boy!

Shawn's signature Aglio Olio

And lastly, the french fries that I brought but cooked by Shawn..=D

An intense game of "Jengga"..Pic from clem

This picture I heart!!!

My turn..damn scary ok!

The game came with a rule where losers had to do stupid stuffs that included suggestions like buying chicken rice topless for the girls and urm..pulling hair from the guys balls.. a kg everytime they lose..wtf how much hair to weigh a kilo wei!

I lost. Rape scene #1

Rape Scene #2 wtf..

No, I wasn't rape la! They were forcing me to swallow an entire chunk of wasabi which of course I threw up in the end.. The pics really look like rape scenes right!

Sarah n I

Shawn n I

And.. Some interesting findings from the house..

#1 "Zhi Lap Sap Tong".. translation.. paper dustbin?? hahaha forgive me for being a banana

I swear I have never seen one before!

I was told that every chinese homes sure have those things wan.. Done by aunties when they watch drama.. Used during meals to throw bones/rubbish.. Cute!

#2 The Cleanest Fridge Award goes to....jeng jeng jeng....

Mrs. Lim's!!! Super clean wei..

The B'day Boy!

A B'day Ritual

After that we went to Clem's place to watch urm..

Live gay porn?? =D

And also I forgot to mention one of the things I prefer to do now than partying is staying at home to watch tvb dramas wtf wtf.. =___________=

MOONLIGHT RESONANCE I HEART!!! *folding "zhi lap sap tong" while watching wtf**

For you drama freaks check out here

Lastly,

I <3 style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">p/s: no other girls shall be recruited into the U8 gang to replace the extincting girl members..